spiritual seeking of reality
Question: Why do you say that you must seek the truth and then say that Truth can not be sought?
Adonis: Did you try to seek the truth and discovered that it can not be done or is it something you have been told? Do you understand the difference? As long as one is seeking, there is a certain assumption that there is a goal, a source, a point that is to be reached and achieved. And I question if this is the right approach to discover the truth of oneself. In the process of pursuing, which is what we are accustomed to doing, there is space. And so, we want to bridge that space, that gap between you and Truth. We want to go from one point to the next point. Move from ignorance to intelligence. So we are asking, is this the right approach. We are asking, does this have any actual meaning. Haven’t mankind been traveling this route since the beginning? After all, this has been our measure of progress, at least outwardly. So there is a certain assumption when it comes to looking inwardly or spiritually. We think it requires the same approach to discover if there is something beyond this finite life. So we are asking and questioning this, deeply.
Now, we are questioning the validity of the seeker. Can the seeker, which is ones self, can that discover something beyond itself, the infinite? And if so, how does one get to it? How do I bridge the gap of not knowing to actually realizing? The seeker is the known. It is a product of the mind. So we are asking can the knower, which is comprised of time, knowledge, intellect, memories and all the rest of it, can that leap into the unknown. Are you watching this within your own consciousness as we go into this? It is vital that you climb into this for yourself. No one can bring you to it. It is a loner’s journey within. Before one sets out on such a journey, we must ask ourselves; do we know where we are going? Or is it an uncharted course in which one must feel ones way through, intuitively. This takes great diligence and intelligent watchfulness, does it not? So we are examining the very instrument, the tool, which is the self, the seeker, to see if it has the means or capacity to discover the unknown. As one begins to prepare for this journey, we are being as realistic and as logical as possible. We do not want to deceive ourselves. We understand that, if we start off with a false premise, we will end with one. We want to be fully ready to take on such a challenge, right from the start. Therefore, we are examining all that we are. Knowing what we are is the key to the journey. So we are asking, what am I, what is the seeker of the unknown? If I do not know myself, how can I find out if there is such a thing as God, the unknown? Going further into this we are aware that the seeker is of measure. Being of time-space and causation, the self is forever expanding and contracting. This means, it is measureable.
Ones self is a bundle of thoughts, desires and emotions. It is all measureable because there is the movement of change. So we see that the seeker is not whole. It is forever under flux and movement. The knowledge of the self is in constant change. The knowledge of the seeker is continuously adding and subtracting itself. So in seeing that the self is constantly changing and constantly transient, a question arises. Is that which change, real? This formulated entity one calls one self is in constant motion pursuing and escaping. Chasing pleasure of various kinds and trying to evade all psychological and physical pain. So we are asking, if this is the constant movement of the self, is it real or merely an illusion of separation? I am asking, is the self an unreality formed out of ignorance? So before we even begin our quest, we must examine the fact of oneself. If the self is a false thing, can it discover the real?
We are sitting in the valley of our consciousness and before we venture out or even touch foot on the mountain within us, we are questioning our pursuit of the truth. We want to see if it has any meaning. Cause if the self is false, it is out of the equation. I can not use a false thing to discover the real. That is obvious, is it not? Do you see it as false or am I telling you it is false? This is very important to see for oneself. We are so accustomed to doing and we have reached a point in which we see there may not be anything for us to do. There can be no effort on our part. A false thing can not bring into being, reality. Reality is beyond its reach. Perhaps, there is really nothing for you to do. Only be open, receptive. Seeing that the self is trapped in continuity and under constant pressure of change through time, we are asking can it take the journey. Can the mind as self, with its entire luggage, take on such a quest or is it an effortless journey into the unknown in which the self discovers it can not move into. One discovers all you can do is come to an end.
ADONIS ALEXANDER
(Author of Secret Sayings of Adonis)
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