Adonis Spiritually Awakens
How do you know that I am awake or enlightened? You know, it takes one to know one. In my youth, I could always feel that sacred calling within the silence of my presence. Tell me, do you really want to know what it was like when I took the journey within? I do not think it can be expressed to another. In fact, it was the great turning point of my life. It was the time of uncertainty, the beginning of a new way of looking at life. All this life, I had been waiting and wondering what is the meaning of existence. What is the purpose of life and this continuation? One day, I told a close friend about my interest in discovering the truth of this life. I told him that by the time I return to
During this time, I was living upstairs in a very large home that many thought was peculiar. Nonetheless, it was my own space and I felt rather comfortable living there. I spent most of my time living the so-called normal life by working during the day, then exercising, swimming, and taking long walks in the afternoon. At night, it was time to forget everything, put aside all of the days events and begin to ponder on the things of this life. I was faced with one thing and one thing only. What is the meaning and essence of life? That was the most fundamental beginning. An uncharted journey was starting to rise in me. It is not the seeking of an answer that I ascertained was of most importance, but the journey itself. The secret was there waiting for me to open myself completely, so that if there is something sacred, beyond this life, it could manifest within me. It was the determination to come face to face with the unknown that intrigued me, deeply.
Spiritual awakening is in the heart of man.
The most extraordinary breakthrough came when I fully realized there is no one in me to seek and discover the Truth. This is the great turning point of self-discovery. I found the pathless way of all the enlightened individuals before me. It was through great perseverance and pondering on what is the self that desires to discover God, the Unknown. This factor pointed the way. I was determined not to accept anything as the Truth except for the seeing of the Truth for myself. It was a great insight to see clearly that my ‘self’ could not find anything that was outside of itself. Finally, I turned all my energy into deeply watching and listening quietly to its content, which is myself. There was no ground in reality for this ‘self’ to stand on. The doorway to the unknown is open and it is virtually impossible to describe all the wondrous things that awakened within me. I have found the doorway to the sacred, in which time does not exist. In which few have ever entered. There was no more “me.” I found the beginning of all things and realized that I am the end of man. In seeing that one is the end, there is no death. So what business do I have with the idea of death? In me, the veil of ignorance is torn asunder by the power of eternal knowing. I have looked into the mirror of life and now see I am the totality of all life, I am life, all existence. Touched by the power of wisdom, I am blessed.
During this time in my life, my whole head was completely empty, vacant and undiluted by the endless movement of thought. Then, one day as I went for a long walk, suddenly without warning, all things vanished within me. I cannot say that I was taken away or was in a so-called spiritual void; all I know is that all life as I know it, came to an end within me. This death is a total ending of the ‘self.’ The end of all life was before me in which words are much to shallow to try to describe such a thing. The total vanquishing of myself was just there. It was as if space and the entire essence of the universe are one within my very being. The mind and the universe are the same in me. There is no separate being in this body. There is no division between anything, and me, living or nonliving. I am the All, awaken and detached of all things. It is through negation in which the doorway, which transcends all knowledge, is open. In this, one is completely released and relinquished. A total surrender formed from understanding and not belief in anything. It is to look into the sky and realize it is hiding that heavenly glory that is the source of all things.
Spirituality is the absolute truth within humanity.
Of course, it is impossible to describe what I see to another. Therefore, I place great emphasis on pointing the way so others may discover this for themselves. For the rest of my life I will be challenged with finding the right words to point to that, which is indescribable. Words are used to describe things, but how can I use words to describe something that is not a thing? This glorious illumination burning in me is life. It is the Almighty, second to none and no one. This living silence is the, I AM. It is the one without a second and the inexpressible in which words, prayer, praise and all adoration falls short of its greatness. It is so great that it is its own glorification. That which I see within me is the pure essence of life. It is the absolute Truth. In fact, it is the First Cause and the ultimate goal of life. In me, there is this ocean of living bliss in which I am completely intoxicated. There is no need for my present life anymore except to point this out to others. I have entered the awakening and crossed the threshold of the highest goal of humanity beyond verbal understanding. That which is open in me, I share gladly with the whole world, indiscriminately.
